Can i say FLIP SIDE!

Well i had a mighty hard time trying to sleep last night. i tossed and turned, hemmed and hawed.


So this morning I got up at 5 am, after having just went to bed 2 hours earlier, decided that i was going to throw a loop in my trip and cancel my round trip flight and re-book a one way ticket to Bangkok.

Doing this trip alteration was tremendously hard and up until the moment of purchase, I struggled with it.


after said and done. i walked away with a ticket leading to one destination and a desire to see and do all.

i have denied myself for too long, the feeling of spontaneity. The idea that, "I DONT have to comeback right away" is a new concept for me.

i have always been an independent minded person, with what i thought was an open mental spectrum. Today I both destroyed my sense of what i was and created what i want to be. An active participant in chance.

the gamble for life. happiness, change.

i havent had to gamble with my time and life for a long time , and when i did, it was a logical tested gamble.


i must say it feels good to be on the edge of the unknown.

i hope it works out in actuality, as it does in my head. If it doesnt, well i guess I'll just have to ask for a new roll

adios

T-minus 2 days and counting

I have less than two days till i fly out to Thailand.

This is the moment I have dream about for the past 8 years. 8 YEARS!!!

I am flying out April 30th @ 8:30 am

Las Vegas > San Francisco
San Francisco > Tokyo
Tokyo > Bangkok


I think the total flight time is 23 hours, after its all said n' done.

...now I am finalizing my back pack and odds n' ends

The last day, of the Last DAY.

So today and the previous day before have been somewhat strenuous to my physical and mental well being. thats not to say that I am not capable or up to the challenges of what life throws me, but FUCK me!

If its not one thing its another.
Yesterday I found out, after spending a good hour removing both wheels from my parents car, to replace their brake shoes, that the major coupling device that attaches the brake caliper to the brake rotor mount required a 7mm hex wrench. NO HEX SET HAS 7mm wrenches.........at least standard sets.

This was then followed by me discovering that all my papers with the vitals of my SS# and Credit Card# were discarded by my father .............2 weeks ago.

and to not finish the day out with no less than thick, creamy drama, i get in a heated debate/argument/bitch fest with my parents about the severity and the nature of me loosing all my sensitive paperwork.



ode to March!

Ohhh "CHANGE', ........Grasp me by my shoulders and shake loose the stale, dried out scales of past , so that i can bare the fresh, new skins of present.... I'm also drinking some of my home made kombucha